I think I have gone a little bit insane
I think perhaps I took a bump on the head recently that I may have forgotten about. Evidence of this newfound madness can be seen in my initial excitement about Miss International Queen 2006, which soon turned into bemusement with regards to the whole affair, only to later become an outright denouncement of the evils of beauty pageants and all they stand for.
Whilst I do believe that a pageant such as Miss International Queen 2006 does little to promote gender issues in a positive sense, I think I could have perhaps been a little more tactful, especially as I was still fuming at being snubbed at the last minute to be on the judging panel.
I wrote about my frustrations for Guru and managed to anger my editor in the process. He had a few choice words to say and I think he’s made me see sense now. I told him I was sorry and would sort myself out. He then dropped another bombshell that I won’t go into here, but it appears that he may be on the up. What the future will hold for The Lost Boy is anybody’s guess.
Although I was wrong to lash out at the ladyboy pageant, the point remains that they acted a little deviously in quashing my big moment. I was so angry at the time that I told them I would write about the whole ordeal. How foolish a boy can be. I’m not really sure what I was thinking, but it certainly hasn’t got me anywhere.
On a more serious note, apparently my name has already been somewhat tarnished in select media circles. This is frustrating as it was the one thing I wanted to avoid doing when I began writing for Guru. I said as much as this in my blog on MySpace. Some people won’t hire for projects me on the basis of my column. It’s not because I can’t write, although my style is far from perfect, but because ‘Matt Crook’s’ name is not the shining beacon I would like it to be.
I am moving on to study my MA in journalism soon, but these things take time, and so for now I must settle for life in Bangkok, although the prospect of this is doing little to enthrall me at the moment.
